Tainted

My view of love has been tainted over years

Now it goes on the list as one of my biggest fears

As I have grown I have found love to be an illusion

Definition attempts only lead to confusion

Some say love hurts; while others claim the opposite

For me the ups and downs are too much to deal with

So I distance myself from love and lovers alike

Settling for lustful actions to fulfill my lonely nights

The love fantasy is not my preference

I honestly believe it was created for reference

I have watched as people embarked upon forever

Ending up with nothing and never

Again and again falling and failing

Sitting on their couches crying and wailing

As love has disappointed them time and time again

Highest high in the beginning lowest low in the end

I have had my run in with love absolutely and without a doubt

It jabbed me in the gut, dotted my eye, and punched me in the mouth

Literally and metaphorically so I have learned a life lesson

Love may or may not be a blessing

Love for family could be a gift

But the love between lovers well that seems like a bottomless pit

Protecting my heart from the pain

Sheltering my love from the rain

Keeping it all for myself

Cause to do bad I need no one’s help

Never again do I plan to let another man abuse me

Spit on my dreams, and/or bring me misery

Down that road I have been

Down that road so have my friends

I am not just targeting men

For some the culprits can include women

If my words are discouraging and you don’t agree

Disregard what I say but, I’m just expressing me.